is that the way it's supposed to be?
is it the way that it is?

been trying harder to train my ear. i should try everyday.
so malia's get together/edge yesterday was dooope. a few girls from orange coast came.
worship was the best part. it was real dope to be playing drums. today, i decided that if i ever play worship again, i want it to be drums. i have so much to let out on the drums..

been writing more lately on guitar.

went to tofu ya again today. and then boba. im still so thirsty.


the devil wears prada is sooo inspiring.

a fault line, a fault of mine.

iwaslyingwhenisaidiwaslookingon
iwastooscaredtoshowwhatiam

bear with me, bear with me, this is all I had left.

last night at orange coast was doooooope. it was funner than i thought.
i had no idea michaela can sing..i knew she could play guitar though. but she played bass. which is cool toooo!

there was this girl there that i didnt know was mari's sister..and she was 20. i had no idea. she does not look twenty d00d.

anyway so kats drove us there, since hes a part of westlight now (sorry peninsula). hes so popular.
hes the man

tonight..im excited for worship at edge..too bad theres no bass player.

happy birthday malia

I'm not about to bury myself.

i thought that my sleeping pattern would improve now that school is coming, but it got worse, or better to me, if you will.
ate dinner tonight with my brothers.

i'm loving every second of litsos. i really am.

oh god, it's racing through our veins.
i'm afraid there must be some kind of mistake.

so god has found a place for my drumming..which might go to tristan's praise band that he's starting. i'm way stoked for it. i might play for youth group this thursday..and it'll be dope since it's the last for the summer.
should i jump, should i stay? can i make another day?? I'm the one who's wrong.
God, forgive me

itmoabs - 082308

don't forever finish, forever stay.
didn't the rope appear lengthless the last time?
of course the creature spits out his victim, because it's up to you.
and I
countless of knots and whatnot.
but time speaks.. count me out

i hated work today. work can get to you so bad.
so lizzie visited me today! as well as derek and lauren, how sweeet of them.

i plan to sleep real late tonight so i can wake up real late tomorrow. im excited for biblestudy.

school is so close. ive gained a mentality on school so good. and how short it is.kinda


*remember that you hated this night.

she can't resist, too blind to see, i know his girlfriend is all about me.
the friday night boys are so dope.
it's all i've been listening to lately. and it's such an unusual twist in my taste of music.

man so today at church, keith was officially gone =[
i heard he's in london or something..and kevin took part ish of his job hahah. but josh mori spoke and stuff. it wasnt that bad. i honestly think kevin could be our next pastor. but he's in denial. he could so do it

i hung out with my family so much yesterday. especially with my dad. he knows me so well. he proved me wrong.
she won't admit, i can't confess, make sure i never tell her i could care less. she looks at you, you might think twice, witness seduction in her eyes.

itmoabs - 81508

been in the mood for-
am walking through piles of needlessness
putting up with the bother
shame on you, the wind's perfect, but you're a no slaughter
'cause I've been in the mood for-
why is there such fists across this field?
is there somewhere else i should be?
amidst in the water while you're grounded unsafely
I've been in the mood for-
hey, chin up.

it's not that I dream about this,
but I've been in the mood for this

i bet you'd strike out with her tonight
i hope i can get a ride to youth group tonight.
my friend and i were talking about how similar we were with going out of the house. i claim to be an introvert here and there, but sometimes im so not.
it depends though

with derek's emails, it's been making me miss camp and my cabin even more. i'm excited for the bonfire

i think i have registration tomorrow..that means waking up early =[, like last year, i just wanna see how my ID came out =D
schools kinda around the corner and i hope this year goes by quickly like it did last year. i have a feeling it will again. i just want school to be over with..

oh yeah, underoath is headlining a tour with the devil wears prada and saosin!!! except they dont have any local dates!!! =[[[[[[
but it's hard for me to even try to understand why you are beating your own heart

itmoabs 83-1008

*you had ears of an owl so!

alive on arrival, caged shut, walls closed.
still permanently locked on souvenirs, but only from the corner of my eye.
how could i have promised when i can't promise alone?
i only wish*
sleep (is) -the- problem (solution),
'cause when i wake i'm on pre-execution.

!i can be your souvenir

i like the way the sun rises this night.

all we have to be is human, 'cause that's what we are ....
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whew..past week was so tiring. past two days i got so much sleep, it felt good. camp was awesome..but felt different for a strange reason. but i was overall satisfied. god really really got to me this time.
break out acoustic was my song last year, but this song called all for you by starfield was my song this year for camp.

derek wong was my cabin leader, and it was spontaneous cause it wasnt supposed to be that way. but me and him got soooooooo much closer at camp. i care about him so much and he feels the same way. our one on one was so nice. i told him stuff i thought i would never tell anyone, and i began to cry. definitely a dope moment. and my cabin bonded way more than last year. like everyone in my cabin i was really cool with. i hope i see them soon.
i still missed eugene though

i thought i wouldnt miss camp, cause on the last day i didnt feel like i did, until like yesterday and now i miss it like crazy. this year, camp went by sooo fast. i have no idea why..like monday was real slow, then after that was like vooosh. i had fun though.

so it was my brothers birthday yesterday and..we ate a lot hahah.
church yesterday was cool. i didnt go share though. i did last year..but iono why i didnt this time.
went to venice church yesterday to say goodbye to the tangs..since theyre gone for two years. i dont know em well but i know kelly a lil. and it makes me wish i woulda excepted christ earlier. him being only 14. hes so young..and so out there already.

i think thats it. i have work in like 3 hours. fickin blows. so see yaa

it turns out you were into yourself

sup ..
first day of august, wow.

worked so much this week. today is my last day. 5-1. i hate sweeping hhaha.
today my brothers and i went out to westwood village and we ate at this place called the stand. it was really dope.

the red mango over there is having kristin bell tomorrow something relating to invisible children. i liked her before lizzy. shes way pretty. when i watched pulse.

camp is in one and a half days. im excited.

met up with blane yesterday, ready for 3 goals.